Wasn’t sure what category to put this under. Given the high profile of mental well-being last week, particularly amongst men I was surprised to find no posts on here - on any related subject - I guess we still aren’t getting it!
They say the camera never lies… so it must be the mirror that lies then. The me in pictures and the me that shaves every day aren’t the same person. I hate the me in pictures and don’t like the me in the mirror much better, but for bizarrely different reasons.
I believed myself to always have been fat, yet I recently found a ‘heretic’ photo showing a skinny 13/14 year old claiming to be me. All future photos were ‘mysteriously’ destroyed, until one escaped clearly depicting me as spongebob square body. It too has mysteriously been destroyed.
So a man goes to his doctor… “Doctor I’ve got ear ache”. Doctor says “You’re overweight”.
So a man goes to his doctor… “Doctor my foot hurts”. Doctor says “You’re overweight”
Man - “so f’cking help me you not insignificantly larger than average yourself b’stard”
And he did. Immeasurably so much healthier now. Yet still the photo and the mirror vie for precedence.
The body has lost a third of it’s mass. I have a couple of Tees that make me look great, but beneath lies a body of saggy, wrinkly skin and this time I don’t think it’ll recover again.
I have gone from being ashamed to take off my shirt and show my fat to being ashamed to take off my shirt to show what remains.
Truth be told I reckon the dysmorphia is in my head (duh), in as much as I use it as an excuse for something else. Obviously this is only my perception and not necessarily applicable to others.